August 31, 2002
oh, boy. how much has this week sucked? first, i end up working until 5am on monday, 1am on tuesday. was able to take a quick break for dinner with friends on wednesday before I went right back to work. On thursday, I find that my site was launched to 10 classes without my knowledge and I spent the whole day answering emails. Actually, that's not true. I took about 30 mins off to have a conversation with the others about our use of Wind and how it was against policy. Their suggestion? write an apache module to work with it. Right. like i have the f*&^ing time to write an apache module. And today? well, today we were supposed to launch calendar. guess what? didn't happen. in fact, i should e-mail john about it. hold on . . . alrighty, e-mail taken care of. oh one more thing that sucked today, I went to register for classes at 3:30 today only to find out that the registration office closed at 3. WTF!!! I worked until 9:30pm tonight. freaking wusses.
I think the only upshots for the week are 1) John and Lydia are back which means that I get to start having a social life again. and 2) I went sake drinking tonight.
I'm sick of this stinkpad. i want ninjageck
August 29,2002
AAARRRRRGGGG!!! what a frustrating day! so I started working on e-com at 10am, at 6:30, I was still in the same place! f*&#ing christ!! if only i could be left alone to do my f*&#$ing work!! unfortunately, wind keeps dying and i end up spending X f(*&ing hours trying to figure out what went wrong when I *know* that it's not my f#$%ing fault!
I think I need to stop taking requests all the time. I should put more emphasis on keeping my job.
hmm . . . jlee keeps leaving without saying goodbye. or at least i don't remember her saying goodbye. maybe she doesn't feel appreciated. jlee: if you're reading this, let it be known that you are appreciated. It's just that today sucked.
I think the only good note for today is that i got to have dinner with friends. went out with willy, karen, lydia, lydia's brother, jeff, and li meng. it was really nice. I haven't hung out with them for a long time. Karen seems kinda down. =( I hope things perk up for her. It's kinda weird, at work I think i can make people laugh and smile, but outside the office i have no fu. I wish i had the fu to make karen smile. she deserves it. she's hot shit and no employer realizes it. so sad . . .
alrighty, time to feed the turtles.
August 27, 2002
hmm . . . everyone has alerted me to the fact that we now know why my kind stick to things
in other news, wordperfect lives!
I found out today that jlee is crafty and uncovered my closet blog. i guess there goes the last reason to do it.
I'm a bit worried about my brother. I'm not sure how he's fairing at his new job. I hope all is well, but he looked awfully tired today.
I really need to finish up e-com. it's starting to weigh on me. If only this darn discussion board thing were easier. I think i've given up trying to understand. I just need a good hour or ten to a hammer to it.
willy called today to tell me that vi is lame. i agree.
alrighty. tired. need to go to bed. then again, i need to do laundry too
August 26, 2002
return of the blog! after a very long hiatus, i'm back! i know I've been keeping all Zero of you waiting. =)
anyway, i guess i should talk about the cruise i just took being that i had quite a lot to say, however, i now have forgotten most of it. oh well.
so i spent the week on grandma duty. a couple of things i've learned:
- gambling with grandma is not gambling. it's four hours of her telling you how much to bet, when to hit, and when to stay
- grandma needs to tell everyone every story three times
- i realize now that the reason i don't understand grandma is that, when she gets excited, she starts speaking in shanghainese-chinese-half-broken-english-that-sounds-like-chinese and then i get lost and then she shakes her head at me and wonders why I don't understand her.
i shouldn't be so mean. most of the time was a lot of fun. i just found these few things a bit amusing.
all in all, i had a really relaxing trip. drank a lot of wine. slept a lot. just really mellow.
first day back at work was pretty hectic. at least i got a lot done. rolled a linux install for the new intern machines. fixed up buggy. fixed ccit-auth. saved the world when wind started refusing connections from eeyore. not a nice thing to do to our poor eeyore. he never did any harm to nobody. hmm . . . oh, i did a little tweaking on piglet as well so that we could take mail from certain people. so i think today went well, even though i didn't do anything in my job description.
Bibby in the house!!!! lakers can kiss my arse! now if only cwebb can stay out of trouble . . .
August 15, 2002
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August 14, 2002
yeow. skipped out at lunch time to eat with my grandma. just barely made it back in time. good thing the trip back to class was downhill
i think a person should only have to read so many man pages. although i love open source community for all its wonders, documentation writers, they are not. this stuff is so incredibly boring. then again maybe it's just me. i get this sinking feeling that i'm going to get shalackied on this test. I'm the youngest one there, have the least experience, and for some reason, everything i do in class works the first time, which in this case really sucks cause the only way you learn about anything in linux is if you break it. sad, yes, but so incredibly true.
hmmm. . . my energy these days seems to have been flushed down the toilet. It's only 11pm and i'm aching to crawl into bed. I'm trying to figure out what the cause of this might be. Perhaps it's cause working at ccit is much more fun than installing rpms. oy. makes me dread the day that i leave that place. i don't think i'll find another place where i could stop everyone's work for five minutes and make them clap for each other. so sad.
shoot, i was supposed to call mom today. I'm a bad person
narf. well, i guess since this log is merely a cathartic exercise for me, i might as well spit this out in plain text . . .
what the hell is wrong with me? I feel old. my competitive ability is diminishing. my skill set is experiencing a major decline in growth rate. I feel like i've hit a plateau. I can't absorb things the way i used to. I can't piece things together the way i used to. I'm just not of the same caliber anymore. I look around my class and i'm the youngest by far and yet, everyone there is like a kid. gathering around computers, exchanging stories and experiences, doing strange networking things for no reason other than because they can. I dunno. maybe one day
I'll pick my sorry butt up. who knows. maybe i'm just tired of running near the head of the pack. Or maybe john's right about not thinking about the past since analysis will show that i'm only a shell of what i used to be. so much self doubt. so little beer to shut me up right now
hehehe i guess now when someone googles for "loser" they'll come across this page.
on a brighter note, i learned that if i can get my system booting, i can install emacs. dig. i can't believe i'm the only one who uses emacs. I asked someone today, "how do you page down in vi?" his response: "page down?" vi. pbbbbbbt!
on a darker note, i think rmb51 and ewl34 ignore thier bug mail.
alrighty, back to work.
$# man squid
August 13, 2002
they make decapitate-able jango fett action figures. this blows my mind.
talked to my Grandma today. i'm supposed to meet up with her for lunch tomorrow. not really sure if this is going to be accomplishable, but i gotta give it a try. it's grandma. nuff said. i have difficulty communicating with her because of her shanghai accent. so i have to muster all my chinese-fu to figure it out. anyway, today she taught me a few tricks about muni.
not much else went on today. half way done with training. this test is going to be interesting. made an honest attempt to learn vi today. i still think it sucks. i think i'll always think it sucks becuase, well, it does. regardless, apparently the letters 'q','w','i','a', and the esc key are the keys to the darn thing. whatever. it sucks.
in other news, the lizard seems to be gaining momentum. it's odd that no one has pointed this out. three slashdot stories on the topic under three categories. me thinks people underestimate it. or maybe they just aren't putting the pieces together. oeone has put together a desktop manager based on it. AOL just released a mac client using gecko, and rueters just had an article on it. in a sick kinda way, i'm a bit glad. the longer ms ignores it, the better chance we have of gaining market share. i just think that if you're deving websites and not using this bad boy, you've put yourself at a severe disadvantage. from the dom inspector which allows you to not only pick apart your web page, but dynamically change the css properites, to the javascipt debugger, to the java console, to the "view selection source", to the utilities available at mozdev and livesidebar it's just empowering. i dig it. hmm . . . i guess i should stop talking about this thing now.
i need to do something cool again. it's been like two days without doing something cool. i just go to class, learn about cool stuff. do psuedo cool stuff. but i don't do anything cool and it's going to be 13 days until i'll be in a position to do something cool, and that's not even a guarantee, cause I'll probably have to deal with all the stuff that i missed . . . alright, i think i've lost it. i'm begging to go back to work right now. aiya.
anyway, point being that i'm not helping anyone right now except myself and perhaps jlg in a small way, and in general it's just not satisfying to me. what can i say, i live for the smiles that i can bring to people's faces.
August 12, 2002
Top reason that vi sucks: I can't f*&#ing use it!
what the hell is this piece of crap? how the hell do i type in this f***ing thing? I mean it's supposed to be a text editor, but you can't do any f*&#ing editing in it. Who the hell thought of this stupid ass idea? I mean, what was the thought process behind it? was it "Ooo, why don't i make this program, call it a editor, but when you start it up, you can't edit it, you have to enter the editing mode." dude! if i wanted to just look at it, i'd cat it. or less it. or more it. if i pull up a text editor, i want to be able to edit it. no shit. i'm not lying. not playing any games with your here. I really want to edit it. I mean i really, really, absolutely want to edit it. i want to press a key on my keyboard, and affect some file out there. damn. what a novel concept.
anyway, i'm just bitter, cause i learned today that chances are, i won't have a real text editor to use on my RHCE exam. only vi or pico. i swear someone should take those two out back, give them a good beating, and shoot them. cause there's no point in having such lameness exist.
otherwise, things went fairly well today. didn't feel too overwhelmed. met some cool people. learned some new tricks. i think it's time i sat down with awk and sed. it might be helpful.
it's kinda funny they way people talk about the exam. well, actually no one talks about it. they talk around it. apparently, you can't talk about the type of questions on the exam. you can't talk about what's covered by the exam. very strange. in a way it's good cause you can't fake anything. in a way it's bad cause you really can't prepare for it. speaking of which, this 9-5 gig is pimp. i had so much time today before i felt whipped, it was kinda nice.
going back to work is going to hurt, i think.
August 11, 2002
blogging over 56K . . . Word.
talk about your action packed sundays. left for the airport today at 4am. hop on my flight, get into SF at 11. Had lunch with my aunt, then I called H and Jeff to meet up with them (CCIT! West Coast! What! What!). While we're making plans, I go with my aunt to see a few condos that cost around $1M. pretty swank. i'll move in to one of those as soon as I have enough money to buy that plasma TV (i.e. never). Then I get a call from dad saying he was in town. So i got to chill with Jeff and H for a bit before they had to head out, and then I meet up with Dad. we had a nice talk about the state of affairs in the world. one of those moments where I was just thinking, "darn, it's good to see my dad again."
anyway, after that, My dad and I met up at with my aunt again at house she was showing. This one was under $1M, but my plasma TV comes first. So we drop my dad off at MoMA, and then we take the kids swimming. That was fun. afterwards, i got to lounge in the jacuzzi which was fantabulous, and then I plopped my butt down in the suana for a while. gravy.
on our way back home, we grabbed some ice cream for the kids, ate dinner, cleaned up, did a little more RHCE studying, and now here i am on my blog.
I love coming home
yes, i'm probably changing tenses all over this blog. blame it on the 56K. I think about it, i type it like it's going to happen, by the time the characters show up on my screen, it has happened, then i read my mess and get confused.
California love
August 10, 2002
yeeehaw! off to SF for a week. have to remember that i'm not on vacation until i pass this RHCE thing. Did some studying today. I don't think this thing is going to be easy.
in the mean time, i leave in three hours and I haven't packed yet. I still need clean up the apartment some. I hope i don't fall asleep before then.
hooked up samba and a test environment for the kids. i don't think jlg was too enthused, but I think i secured it fairly well. akshin's comp was doing some wierd things though. creating all these extra files. curious.
need to start thinking about fantasy football draft. it's right around the corner . . .
i think my mind is too scattered right now to put together a whole paragraph. funny, i got like 16 hours of sleep last night. hmm . . . maybe somethings wrong with me.
anyway, for any of the kids that might be reading this, be sure to take care of the grown-ups while i'm gone.
late.
August 8, 2002
just finished playing some Big 2 with the kids. it's been a while. . .
so tomorrow i get to run the show. i have a feeling that it's not going to be a good day. too much to do. f*** me. well, i guess there's always saturday. I'd really like to get discussion boards done. like done, done. not kinda done. but, i have to do a house call tomorrow, show ant my place, get a copy of my keys, make sure the kids stay on target, deal with whatever else happens tomorrow, switch backup tapes, and do a little reading for RH. yeah . . . right . . . peachy
word to the j to the l to the e to the e
for some reason, i find myself constantly being billed as the next big thing. people just expect it. I dunno. I think i'm growing to hate expectations. just adds to the disappointment in the end.
hmm . . . maybe I should have put that in my stealth blog
ym referred to me as an admin today. damn. I guess that means i'm one of the big kids, now. brrrr.
August 7, 2002
Well, another day down. I'm trying to think about what I did today. I know i did something. helped some people with stuff. put ecom through some paces. Still shocked that we haven't reached 0% growth.
really need to start trying to figure out phpbb jlg is asking for automated install. I think i have a plan. we'll see if it works. only one way to find out, i guess.
introduced rob to tinderbox I'm glad he's taking interest. maybe one day i'll figure out nsIFile and then I can actually fix the UNC problems with profile.
I wonder if ninjageck will show up tomorrow . . .
August 6, 2002
long live jukebox
August 5, 2002
Alrighty, so it's been a few days. Things have been hectic around the office. Lots to do as we move everything over to piglet, figure out what to do with roo, and get ready for the next release of e-com. one of these days I'll have time to do this right. In the meantime, whatever.
so there's something to be said about closet blogging. I dunno what. But there is something to say about it. I think i just got too tired of doing it the other way. maybe I'll reserve that method for when i'm feeling deeply intellectual or something.
Overall had a pretty good day. long as heck, but like i said, there's a lot of work to be done. and little things seem to crop up, too. I guess another bites the dust. I wonder who the head of it is over there. Taking things from great to broken. But then again, it's only a matter of time before we head down that road. Lord, i hope i don't get put on the beep list.
finally got batteries for my mouse. rock.
Aiya. four more days until i leave. I hope the big kids will be ok. always worry about them. jlg called from cali cause eeyore was barking. maybe one day i'll learn not to f**k up apache, and he'll trust me as a sysadmin. =)
I think i'm finally making inroads with the interns. They keep asking me about the lizard. I keep telling them that i rocks. H is using it now. I think rmb51 is starting to depend on it for life. he spent an hour today trying to get it to work on one of the ddc laptops.
sleep is good.
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